Rewriting the middle

It’s been a minute. Our household has been hit by a flu bug and we’ve had half term. But, those things excluded, I’ve also just been struggling a little. I explained previously that I’d been on a health journey and had lost 4.5st. Well, that journey was medicated for six months. Those fantastic little jabs, kept at the lowest possible dose (max 3.75mg) worked wonders for me and opened up a whole new world. A world where I didn’t think about food 24/7. A world where I didn’t eat in secret due to feeling ashamed and where I wasn’t thinking about what I could eat next, while eating something. I’ve always struggled with my weight. I was a big kid and have always been a big adult.

In 2014 I underwent gastric sleeve surgery which physically removed 80% of my stomach. I lost about 10.5st and got down to a UK size 12-14 from a 24. This got my health to a point where I could conceive and went on to have my two beautiful children. I was skinnier after giving birth to my first child, than I was when I fell pregnant. However, the luck stopped at that first pregnancy. The second was wild, and I overate like crazy. I stretched out my small stomach and managed to gain 3st during that pregnancy. And, I never lost it (he’s 8 now). In fact, I gained more weight and I felt completely disheartened knowing that I’d done the damage to myself, despite being given this golden opportunity all that time ago.

But, I am trying to give myself some grace because what I have realised is that my brain works differently to others, those without disordered eating habits. I came off Mounjaro at the end of December 2025 due to the cost. It was never meant to be a long term solution, just a kick up the butt for six months. Once the medication was fully out of my system, the food noise came back and hit me like a train. It was as though a switch had been turned off while on the medication and some rude bugger had come along and switched it back on. I have struggled massively with overeating again since January and I haven’t dared step on the scales since.

After getting the news that I was having a pay rise that would be back paid to last April, I had to make the tough decision to go back onto MJ. Today was my first jab again. I am so excited for this horrid noise to be quietened once again and to feel like I can look forward to a healthier, slimmer future again. I’m seeing today as the starting point, not a continuation of my last journey. Let’s see where we can go from here. I don’t know if this content is of interest to anyone, I’m happy to talk about it more if anyone is interested. Speak soon 🙂